Officially, in 12 hours I can call my guy (who I now dub The Pisces).
And while that’s AWESOME…I know he won’t be awake. So…I’ll probably call him in more like 15 hours. Give or take. And then we can make plans for next weekend.
As most of you know, this has been REALLY hard for me. I don’t like rules. I’ve never played by the rules. And why I took on this challenge in the first place, I’m not even really sure.
But believe it or not, I’m glad I did.
Some of my long-time readers may remember the last “relationship” I was in. With a guy nicknamed “HotDad.” (I wish I could see how many of you are nodding your heads, saying, “Yep. I remember HIM.”) In any event…that ended REALLY badly. REALLY, REALLY badly. And even though we only dated for two months, it took me close to a year to get over it. Partly because I wasn’t ready to date in the first place…and partly because I’m a little nuts. (Well…maybe more than a little…but I digress…)
In any event…at the time of that break-up, I was given a similar challenge. I was told to not communicate with him for a few weeks. I forget exactly how many (I’m sure I blogged about it, if anyone cares to look it up), but it was similar to this. Only in that case, we were done. Or rather, HE was done with ME. Yet for some reason, I couldn’t do it. I literally could NOT not text or email him. I couldn’t go a few days, much less a few weeks. I probably harassed that poor boy for about four months before I FINALLY sort of let it go. And I say “sort of” because I believe I emailed as last as six months after we ended.
What can I say? I’m cuckoo.
So…fast forwarding to now. The situation is different. The Pisces and I are actually dating, and we both are trying to make it work. It’s a much better situation. But the point is the same: can I live without constant communication? Turns out, this time around, the answer is yes.
It’s not easy. Not easy at all. And I cannot wait for this two weeks to be over. But I’ve been productive. My house is getting cleaned. My laundry is getting done. (Both of these are HUGE accomplishments if you know me at all.) I’m more clear headed than I’ve been in a long time.
I miss my guy like crazy. But I think I’m stronger now, less dependent on him…and I know I can function without him. And that kinda makes it all worth it.
xoxo,
SM75
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Yep. I remember him. *nods*
LOL. Yeah. I’ve come a long way since HotDad, don’cha think?!?
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